Wednesday, January 11, 2012

No more stinkin' thinkin'!

How appropriate that my first completed drawing of the new year is that of "The Thinker".  I spend a lot of time thinking.  Mostly a lot of "what if" thinking.  What if I had done this instead of that, when I was younger?  What if I had studied harder in school?  What if I had turned left instead of right?  What if...,  well, you get the picture.  I'm sure most of us do the same thing.  And I'm sure most people act on those "what if's" and actually make a difference in their lives, right?  Me?  I'm a thinker.  And much like "The Thinker", which is made of bronze and marble, I've been grounded, stuck in that same crouched position, hand to the chin, right elbow to the left knee, in meditation, battling with powerful internal struggles.  Yep, that's me, internal struggles abound!  But why does that have to be?  For years, that's all I ever did, "think".  But I have decided that 2012 is the year to "act".  The past is done. It's over! There's absolutely nothing I can do to change it.  All I have is the present and the future to build on and time marches on.  But why this year, why the change?  As mentioned in my previous blog, "Why George..., you're worth more died than alive", I finally came to the realization that as an artist, as a person, I do have worth.  This worth is not exactly the worth that I had expected or planned while doing all this thinking, but it is a worth none-the-less.  Because of this newly discovered virtue, a world of opportunities have presented themselves to me.  The winds of change are approaching.  It's time to pack my bags and climb aboard that little engine that could.  I've now firmly placed my hands upon my knees, leaned forward, pressed myself into an upright position, knees creaking in revolt, raised my out stretched arms and vehemently said, "I think I can, I think I can, I think I can!"